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Post by tehxwonderfulxammy on Apr 19, 2006 13:20:13 GMT -5
Ah, my daily ramblings....since most people don't have my xanga (www.xanga.com/loveless_lifeless), I'll begin putting ramblings up here. Mind you, I am most often very depressedish. Either that or very very up and down about stuff. I've been having major family issues and stuff, so alot will be about that. And more than likely, I'll have long posts. ;>.>...
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Post by tehxwonderfulxammy on Apr 19, 2006 13:29:24 GMT -5
Yesterday: John likes me. Happy happy. Got a good bit of my astrology chart done. woo.
Last Night: Daniel gets on to say goodbye and that he loves me. He asked me if in four years I would marry him. I said yes. Daniel was shot at 8:14 EST because he wouldn't tell these men anything about his family or me. I'll love him forever, but he'd want me to move on. I let him know that his little sister Ashley was safe. The police won't let her live with her mom again. I sung to him. Well, not really to him. At 9.00 I just started singing "I'll Be" by Edwin McCain. The one thing he wanted out of all this crap was to hear me sing. Hopefully he heard me.
Today: Woke up and went into zombie mode. Got dressed, got in the car, dad drove us to school, got there early as usual. I broke down crying. Jus went to school. I stayed in the car because I wouldn't be able to make it through my classes. Stayed in bed until around 11. Slept a good bit. Jumped on. John's not on today Kirst said. That sucks. I've decided I want to move to Belgium. I'll live with John or Kirst. They can teach me Dutch...
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Post by tehxwonderfulxammy on Apr 19, 2006 16:33:26 GMT -5
*very very very very very happy*dances around*giggles uncontrollably*
*coughs*Ahem...well, yes. I just talked to John. Kirst did say he wasn't gonna be on...But he was! And we had a kissing war with those little lips icons on MSN. XD He's so cute. He knows he makes me feel better. I think he tries to play it out like I'm not upset so he's not helping. But he does. And I love him for it. When he left for bed, I was typing a goodnight kiss to him but he signed off. Imediately after, he signed back on to see what I was gonna say. *squee* Yeah. He's so cute. *huggles Johnny plush toy* And we have alot in common. o.o It's kinda weird...but neat at the same time. I mean, I've never met someone else with as many of the same interests. XD But we have enough differences to have a conversation without getting bored. He's an excellent conversationalist. *nods* *swoons* *goes off to hide in closet with John plushies*>.>....
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Post by tehxwonderfulxammy on Apr 20, 2006 21:36:04 GMT -5
Wrote a poem today, will post in the poetry section. Saw John for all of five minutes it seemed. I know it was longer but there really wasn't the same connection as the other night, and I may not see him till Monday at least...Maybe he was just tired. One can only hope.
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Post by Bluey the Dragon on Apr 22, 2006 7:52:30 GMT -5
*has fun reading it*
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Post by tehxwonderfulxammy on Apr 23, 2006 5:37:17 GMT -5
Three weeks till graduation and what do we have, folks? A teenage victim of heartbreak, loss, and a raging battle between parents. And lets not forget her stupid little brothers and the so called friends that she hears talking behind her back every single day!
Life sucks, end of story. Graduation's coming up, but I've got roughly three more weeks in which I have to deal with the dumbasses in my grade. And what better to replace hormonic teenage dumbasses than midget brothers who insist on being the little terrors that make me want the ground to swallow me up. Yes, that's right, I'm depressed. Get over it, cuz I won't anytime soon. I hate life right now. I want to talk to John but can't. I want to roleplay but everyone's either busy or ignoring me(shocker there). And d**nit, I've got artist's block, mom, so I'm not gonna f**king go draw you a pretty stick figure! Half my friends are as depressed as me if not more so and the other half are completely oblivious. Wow, dejavu.
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Post by Seldrima on Apr 23, 2006 6:55:29 GMT -5
Argh Ali..look things will only get better, i'll help you get through this, i promise i'm here for you we all are. John, talk to him bout regular talkings etc. Brothers, give 'em wedgies or be their friend, like turn them on your side, parents F*Ck em and just stay calm
Love ya babes
<33 seldy
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Post by tehxwonderfulxammy on Apr 23, 2006 13:33:54 GMT -5
Arg, mad at everyone right now. Mostly myself. Just got back from a waterballoon fight and loe and behold, my legs are spotted green. Because I was smart and wrote all over my jeans in green marker....
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Post by Bluey the Dragon on Apr 23, 2006 13:35:49 GMT -5
w00t
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Post by Brandin on Apr 23, 2006 17:25:43 GMT -5
*does write on his jeans sometimes* *coughs* You shouldn't write on your jeans... *whistles*
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Post by Lady Caunwen on Apr 27, 2006 9:29:58 GMT -5
*reads* wow...a kissing war
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Post by tehxwonderfulxammy on Apr 27, 2006 14:07:42 GMT -5
Heh...yeah, we're weird like that.
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Post by Lady Caunwen on Apr 29, 2006 21:11:35 GMT -5
i figured that out awhile ago, alish...you've always been a 'little' wierd ^.^
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Post by violet on May 2, 2006 23:52:20 GMT -5
wow
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Post by tehxwonderfulxammy on May 3, 2006 14:26:58 GMT -5
wow what?
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w00t!!!! Blueyishness!!! 
